Insomnia strikes

So it's about 4:30 am and I cannot sleep. It's been this way for a little bit now. I'm not talking a full night of lying awake just that half night wake up toss and turn until I hope to fall back asleep before work. I'm just so anxious about so much right now, the main thing being pretty obvious. Anxious in a good way but I wish I could still sleep! Anyways, guess this means I have time to update my blog.
So this past weekend we drove up to Maryland for my brother and Andreas wedding. If you're reading this then you probably already know that their actual wedding was in Jamaica in the end of April but since we couldn't make it to that one it was definitely out of the question to miss this wedding, afterall they are two of my favorite people in the entire world! Needless to say the wedding was breathtaking. We had so much fun and had to come back to Florida way too soon!! And I don't know if it's just me, but it seems way hotter than it did when we left Thursday.
So now that all of the weddings we've had planned for the past hmm... Year and a half are over, it's officially baby focus time... Probably part of the reason for my sleep deprivation. Another part would be the fact that My stomach is getting bigger by the second and while my maternity pillow has come to be one of my new best friends, it can only do so much! This saturday we have our 4d ultrasound first thing in the morning, which I booked almost 3 months ago and have been EXTREMELY excited about. And then that night we have cirque de soleil!! So I think now that there's only a tiny bit of time before I have to get up I may actually be able to sleep, but I'm sure this is the first of what will become many random middle of the night posts. Hope everyone is sleeping better than me... I cannot wait for this little man to be here, not expecting better sleep. Just want to meet him and let him know how loved and special he is! Goodnight (or morning)

Love, Sam

Because I Said So...

So maybe I should update... I've been slacking a little. Umm since my last post, not too much has happened in the pregnancy besides my little gummy bear growing bigger.  I had my glucose test yesterday (Tuesday), and despite all of the horror stories I have been told it wasn't 100% awful. The stuff did not by any means taste good, it was nasty... but I didn't get nauseous from it which is always a plus! I did get slightly lightheaded but Camden was wired. I think all that sugar had him going. Or he was trying to escape from the disgusting liquid that his mother was drinking haha. That's really my theory. Just a little bit longer baby, keep cooking. Work has been going pretty good. This is the second week with my new class and the new kiddos are doing pretty good. There are 9 of them, which is wonderful compared to the 20 that we had during the school year.  One of them asks me "why?" about... 7 times a day and I have caught myself responding with a phrase that I never thought I would say, "Because I said so."  I know it's awful, but when you tell a child something like "Don't push him off the porch" and he responds with "why?", I feel that response is much better than would you like me to push you!" Pregnancy hormones are not so sensitive to 4 year olds :p Oh and I actually have a student intern that is observing my class and well that is interesting to say the least... I try and be understanding since I know what it is like but it can definitely be trying. (Side note- I don't understand how someone that wants to be a teacher can never want to have kids... this seems a little off to me) Anyways, I've been trying to take it easy because I get exhausted fairly easy at this point in the pregnancy. I'll be 29 weeks on Sunday so I'm officially in the third trimester and I'm about 7 months. It seems so crazy to think that this time a couple of months from now we'll have a little one. I cannot wait to meet him! Guilty to say I'm a Secret Life addict, and this past weeks episode was, to put it mildly, a tearjerker. It really hit me, and my poor husband had to sit there and suffer through the emotional wreck that is me. SPOILER ALERT for anyone who watches Secret Life and has not seen this past weeks episode because I have to give some explanation...

Two of the main characters went to the hospital to have their baby and the baby didn't end up making it. All of the family and friends found out that the baby was being delivered and came to the hospital with presents for the new parents and baby and of course that was when they found out the baby passed away. Anyways, loving someone, the biggest fear is losing that person. I did not think it was possible to love another human so much that I've never even met before, but I love my unborn child more than life itself. Just the thought of something happening breaks my heart and I hate the thought of anyone having to go through that. I just pray daily that everything goes well with the rest of our pregnancy and that we have a healthy, safe delivery. Okay so I am done with that I guess (If you're still reading I am truly impressed!)

When we went to the doctors, we made an appointment for every 2 weeks up until my 36 week mark. Seeing it all mapped out that way makes it all seem so soon. Starting in July we have something literally every week for the baby, whether it's an appointment, ultrasound, or the baby shower :) Oh and in 2 weeks we'll be heading back to Maryland for my brother and sister-in-law's wedding celebration (part 2!) I am very happy to be able to be there for this one since we were unable to make the gorgeous Jamaican extravaganza.

I think I'm rambling so I'm done. I cannot wait until this weekend, much needed relaxation is planned.